Today, I decided to just be. No forcing the day or my mind to be focused on a million thoughts. I wanted to just breathe. So, I breathe, I breathe, + I just be. I vibe, I write + I do what makes me feel good. I do what makes me feel aligned with self + God. Working on your inner self will allow you to align with God, then the outside will follow. It hurts to heal. I know I’m growing because I used to think about the pain that hurt so bad, but babyyyy the reminder of the healing that hurts too… I can only laugh to keep my cool. What a war between being grateful to know the strength it takes to heal vs the pain it takes to feel in the process. I think about all that I’ve been experiencing in every area that you can think of + I still have hope. I still believe that things can + will get better. Even after so many griefs in such a short time. My mind wants me to think that I should be in pieces. My heart is so familiar with shattering, that I knew I was in pieces but I didn’t have to stay there. That, I can control. -Talk about the process of healing.
– 12|5|22 @7:04pm