Overcoming Setback

The feeling of setback after working so hard to overcome was a lot to accept. I started my healing journey in 2018. I had no idea what to do to heal or how to do it, completely lost. I only knew that I had to get away from what caused a negative reaction. Writing has always been my outlet. It’s where I’m free. My words talk back to me + that was proof that it could reach other people the same way. This was the place I was creating before I really understood it. I really started doing the inner work. That part of my journey was hard, + I told myself I’d never let myself be that low again. I’m learning that you can speak what you want, get it, + then realize you didn’t ask for what you really needed so you got what you thought you wanted. All that to say, putting in all that work to feel just like the 21-year-old me having to strive to be better + overcome again. Being at what feels like square one. It’s been challenging + I’ve wanted to give up a thousand times more than I wanted to push. What keeps me going is literally the time I put in with God + myself. When I am there, I am assured. Working on yourself will open your eyes to an entirely different perspective to everything. It was like, I was experiencing familiar situations, but seeing it with a different eye. What felt like a setback was only a setup for me to not only overcome, but master who I really am in God.